It's a very uneasy feeling you experience when something that you were looking forward to with such eager anticipation and excitement, just blows up in your face at the last minute.
Part of my frustration is that there are very few things in this life that truly excite me.
Likewise, there's very few times in this life that I've been so utterly disappointed as I am right now.
My excitement came from the opportunity to apply for the best job in the world!
A DREAM job for me.
A tropical island.
The sun, surf, thousands of wonderful fish and other animals...........
Perhaps I just got over-excited at the opportunity for something different, even though it was seemingly unattainable from the onset. But nevertheless, I was looking forward to just a shot at applying as a once-in-a-lifetime chance that I couldn't pass up.
Either way, it's an incredible combination of some of the things I really love in this world, and I couldn't help but be excited to apply............
...and because of that, I'm all the more disappointed that I wasn't able to.
It just seemed to be one frustrating setback after another.
First, where to find a camera.
I found one to borrow, but then he needed it back.
Then I found another one through a generous friend of a friend.
So I had a plan for what I would film and how the video application would look.
It was PERFECT in my mind, and not too hard to do.
Next setback -- I couldn't get friends together to film the scenes with me.
Business trips, planning weddings, having babies...........
So that forced a change of plan.
Now, instead of filming so much, I'd just needed them to call a phone number and leave a message saying good things about me and I'd use that as audio for other stuff I'd film.
Next setback -- nobody was calling or even replying to me.
I had to contact people again BEGGING to please call.
It came down to 2 days before the video was due and only 1 person had called.
This is really when I started feeling the tinge of disappointment.
Are they busy?
Are they not taking me seriously?
Do they just not care?
I wasn't sure what to think.
Finally, on Saturday, after reminding people, I had a handful of messages to work with and had filmed what I needed.
More setbacks Saturday night meant no real editing until Sunday.
Sunday I finally get to edit the video after a crash course in iMovie and GarageBand.
By this point, I'm frustrated but getting it done, and I reached the point where I just wanted to get it finished and submitted.
I go to the website to submit it and.............
SUBMISSIONS ARE CLOSED!!!
The deadline was midnight on the 22nd........................... in UTC time!!!!
I missed it by 45 minutes!!!
The only thing that bothered me more than settling for a video I wasn't very proud of was knowing that after all was said and done, I really only have myself to blame for everything.
I should have never let myself get that excited.
I should have never allowed myself to rely on anyone else to help me.
I should have done stuff a lot earlier.
It's done with.
Here's what I ended up with if anyone cares........